maanantai 10. kesäkuuta 2013

the last flash that cuts it all


the sky flashed all suddenly. a thunder! so here i am now, sitting in front of my computer wondering all the ballet stuff while the rain flies downwards. each raindrop is chasing its friends, they ram together, they ram against the trees, ram into the fields like seas of numberless flowers, and in the end of their pitiful short life they ram against the grass and gravel and finally get to meet the ground. time of hope has been ended by a single moment of crash.
i love the rain.

a second flash, followed by a frightening rumble like out there in that blue night there were a thousand lions roaring for nothing but one's solitude.

and the last flash that cuts the whole miserable concert all in one place and time. a silence.

i shall go to sleeps and dream about ballerinas riding on raindrops in order to skedaddle from a pride of flashing-maned lions.

- varis

kuvat we♥it.comista.

sunnuntai 2. kesäkuuta 2013

musical inspiration of past weeks

it seems to be a rule rather than an exception to live for music if it is to be believed what people say. i've never been that attached. it is lovely to hum along a song of preference and keep listening it over and over againg, but it's not such a passion to me. (furthermore, i'm musically a total inept, it's sector of ability i haven't got even the most basic talent, nothing at all.) almost everybody say they couldn't live without music, but even if i'd consider it terrible, i could, rather than losing my possibilities to write for a poor example.

even so, i have my beloved pieces. during the past weeks i've discovered almost too much new music, bands and artists, singers and composers, and awoke the lust to start sharing them. i've felt listening to music becoming a more important part of my days since i've been a bit down lately and haven't had that much interest in, well, anything - let alone having strenght to pick up new things to do. although, i've done more dancing, and that's pretty musical as well. so i thought it would be a good time for this post which, i have to say, will not be the last one of its kind.

well, there you go, some songs i've found and loved (they fall in quite various genres!):


sóley - pretty face


scandinavian music group - näin minä vihellän matkallani


dillon - thirteen thirtyfive


ludovico einaudi - una mattina


of monsters and men - king and lionheart


coeur de pirate - wicked games


camille saint-saens - le carnaval des animaux


nightwish - while your lips are still red


yanni - adagio in c minor (piano cover)


imagine dragons - radioactive


imagine dragons - it's time


alt-j - dissolve me


george winston - colors/ dance


sail - awolnation


gary stadler and wendy rule - dance of the wild faeries & invocation


inés vasconsellos - battement tendu (oh i couldn't do without a little ballet music!)


seabear - cold summer


sing fang - because of the blood


daughter - landfill


angus and julia stone - all of me


for a minor reflection - okyrrd


circadian eyes - finding silence


circadian eyes - rain


pepercut - morning blues


tango with lions - in a bar


julia stone - winter on the weekend


flunk - blue monday


gabrielle aplin - home

did i knock you out with such a list? oh, but maybe you'll find some new favourites as well.


- varis

psst. i'll get this new look published hopefully tomorrow or day after, it's just getting through the pictures i've got to get done.

lauantai 4. toukokuuta 2013

she makes the sound the sea makes to calm me down

oh life isn't simple...



sóley - pretty face


alt-j - dissolve me









- varis

sunnuntai 14. huhtikuuta 2013

i'm back!


hi. i haven't been doing very well for quite some time so that's why i haven't updated anything neither on this blog or lookbook until now. but i'm back now, though i'll today just quickly give you a look from just over a week ago.


you'd be supposed to hear more about me later.

- varis

lauantai 2. maaliskuuta 2013

i was supposed to have wings

ohh i finally received these lovely leggings of which i've dreamed about for over a year! now honestly, i dunno why i just didn't order them earlier. it's not a bad price, seven dollars, isn't it!




erutan - rose of may








oh, and the sun's begung to shine here again! after the darker days (despite the fact that this winter has been quite a lot easier) it feels so strange; i would never have guessed it would be so hard to adjust to that!

- varis

perjantai 22. helmikuuta 2013

mom's little girl wants to touch the other side



noticed my new look i added yesterday? i was too sleepy and my stomach hurted way too much so i didn't see "sitting down and starting to write a whole new post" as a very tempting idea, or neither necessary. instead, i'll give you a few more photos in the end of this post!

such many lovely things have taken place lately. i had my prom! i've got so much pictures to show you and i can't help feeling still quite rapt, yet a little wistful. but since that was a day (or two days, technically) so very unique and the photos taken are numerous, it might take a while until i've gone through 'em all. i hope you understand! that was something that made me feel more happy than i've been for years, i discovered a whole new world with whole new feeligs. actually, my vat of belief in life began to fill itself so quickly and without warning that i'm amazed i even managed to hold it stable. a week has passed, and it has stayed almost as full as it was then; much nearer to its neverending borders after all. i've experienced all those new, positive feelings and longings during this week even though i've done almost nothing but slept. they are things like trust, love, dreams and calm, and i must say they really are pretty awesome.

so i've had a week off from school, and i actually disrealized it until now. now it's only the weekend that's left, and i'm definitely not ready to get back to all that school work, stress and stuff. but today i was shopping with my mom, and we did have quite a wonderful day! zara had final sales and i bought some wonderful pieces, two shirts 10€ each, trousers for five euros and a top of same price. being the person i am, i got a very bad conscience for buying such many items at the same time.
we had dinner there as well, and did some other little shopping including the endless circling at the furniture stores trying to find me a wardrobe, even a lamp (!), and not succeeding in either. anyhow, it was fun. i also saw a wonderful thing that will maybe develop to something just great in the future, but i don't feel like telling about that yet. eh, more than i did.

pictures, there you go:







- varis

keskiviikko 6. helmikuuta 2013

hush now dear children


erutan - come little children

i've been feeling very tired lately. it's quite hard to survive even the few lessons i have, and so i've made the coming school period a little easier for me as well.
meanwhile, i've been spending my days off (and my almost days off) very dissatisfyingly. while i had been planning going to gym, reading italy, shopping and watching a good movie maybe, i managed to sleep over half the day, and that did make me feel depressed. since i didn't feel like leaving for the city the time i woke up, i read about handmixers (now really, and i'm supposed to be a teenager) and went out walking with the purpose to eventually drop by buying one. however there was none left, so i got home with a disney, some groceries and must-have earrings for my mom. they expressed quotation marks, and she is a librarian. now let me explain a little: in finland we use the same word for a quote and to borrow (a book for example), so the library has taken the quotes as their logo. and those lil' earringies were even on sale, i got them for only two euros. how awesome that was!

i also found something nice for myself (in addition to disney's robin hood); a lovely looking second-hand store and a few other random boutiques worth of checking out. sadly enough, it was too late to enter any of those since i had woken up so late. but it only takes like fifteen minutes walking from our new place so i gonna visit them soon anyway!
today, instead, i found a new favourite musician: she's called erutan. i just love all her arragements, they have everything it takes to get me hooked. her youtube channel is worth of visiting, trust me! tomorrow i'll find out if they sell her first album anywhere here in finland. i would love it so very much to have it material, even though she sells 'em online as well.

now i have to head for the bed! there's just a new look (from 27.1.2013) that needs to be quickly presented. it's mainly second-hand stuff as well;













- varis